Cyndi Syt 20 years of live-hood. Old enough to be your mother. Location is in Singapore, a small dot in the world map (in any case you have no idea). Straight.
Pure chinese, please don't make me repeat this. For your information, I am very impatient, cannot even wait for a second. // I'm a extremely weird girl who's vain like all other girls.
If you don't know me, then don't judge me. I had been thru what you had not. Grow up,childish monsters.
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Yes. I'm feeling damn (x1000) guilty as I blog. The reason why, I'm feeling so guilty is that, I bought a DSLR today. I had been thinking whether to buy one or not. Because I'm not born a sliver spoon in mouth. And I had already spent a lot of my mum's money. "You know how long I need to save this amount?", she said. Sighs. I'm so stressed and guilty now. I just feel like crying my lungs out.
I should be feeling happy, because I got what I wanted all along. But I just can't. I really can't. A thought just flash through my mind. "How I wished I never bought this camera. How I wish..."
I regretted.
p.s/ That fucking company of mine, just won't give me my pay, soon.
Randomly ranted ♥ 11:03 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Stress. Stressing. Stressed.
Tons of projects piling up. Weeks after weeks. Absence after absence.
I got like 7 damn projects to pass up on the first week of September. Marvellous eh? >:( What a great start for my September 2008.
Life nowadays is meaningless. It's much more like a cycle. I do whatever I have to do and turn in for the day. Not really enjoying what I'm going through now. Holidays = Boring, chill only. School = Boring, STRESSED OUT!
&WHEN CAN I GET MY PAY?! I'm like super duper broke now. This is like the 7945p947835 time I'm repeating this sentence. I need money urgently. DSLR, I need you. &Please, you, who's reading this post, Please help the poor Sinyi to click on the Nuffnang advertisement on the right side bar, And below this post. A million thanks. Cheers.
Argh, I'm like forever whining about all these shit. Sinyi, stop, Sinyi!
I'm so addicted to Sims 2 on psp right now. Cannot stop playing! That explain my piling undone projects.
p.s/ I'm feeling so, empty nowadays. As though something, or some part of me is missing.
Randomly ranted ♥ 9:43 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008
WHY AM I SO BROKE?! _|_
Shit, I'm so vulgar nowadays. Which I shouldn't. Because... I'm a girl!
Fuck, I'm damn fucking broke now okay. I have no life. Staying at home all the time. Face my 14" laptop's monitor all the time. I HAVE NO LIFE.
p.s/ I need to get a life. Yes, please.
Randomly ranted ♥ 9:13 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I went school today, without Azzy.
I just realised I have no friends in class except for her.
I feel lousy. I feel left out. I feel so... ARGH!
Unbelieveable! I actually had lunch alone.
& The feeling really sucks okay.
I felt like a loser.
Damn it.
As I said, people come and go in your life. But I still cannot forgive and forget. I have no idea why I'm typing all these words out, I just got a feeling to do this. Random.
Yeah, I'm lonely. To the max.
I felt as though I the only person in the world,
& Nobody actually cares about me.
Nobody gives a fuck about me.
Nobody actually needs me.
Yes, I'm really feeling that way.
Don't ask why, I also have no idea.
I'm really feeling very down now. Very.
Dear friends, if you can't get through my cellphone,
Maybe... Something happened to me.
Argh, whatever.
Nobody cares anyway.
p.s/Am blogging in school. Random.
Randomly ranted ♥ 1:17 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Happy 18th Birthday Atika!
Yes, this post is dedicated to my dearest girlf, Nur Atika. (LOL) She's eighteen, like finally. I'm worse though. Eighteen already huh, can go clubbing legally, can drink legally, can buy ciggrettes legally.
Atika Atika... Can you dress like your age? You know what I mean right, your fashion sense is like... -.-!
Anyway, I know this bitch for like 6 years already, and it's still counting. Can't believe it, I contributed like 6 years of my life to her!!! WOW, amazing isn't it?!! We shared happy times together, sad times together and crazy times together. We laughed together, cry together, and go crazy together. LOL.
Okay Atika, I love you. I believe we'll be BFF, I know it's mushy and typical, but, it's from the bottom of my heart okay. HEHEHESXZ. iie lubb euu deep deep w0rhsxz. =))
And I'll pass you your present when I get my pay okay. Sorry, I'm really damn broke now. Owe you a treat yeah? ^^
I'm not feeling happy. I'm not feeling sad. I'm not feeling angry. I'm not feeling peaceful. I'm not feeling good. And I'm not feeling that bad.
I just feel that, that something is missing. Which I don't know what's that something.
Perhaps it's the something. Or maybe it's the somethings.
Maybe I'm feeling too sensitive. Maybe...
Randomly ranted ♥ 3:32 PM
Monday, August 11, 2008
Mood Swings. PMS. Fustrated.
I feel so terrible. This is the first time I'm affected so much by PMS. I'm having terriblemood swings. Just too much. And not forgetting the cramps.
Work. Sales. Money.
Question is, when the fuck can I get my damn pay. I need the money. Urgently. Fuck.
p.s/ Pardon me for all the vulgarities. But I'm just too fustrated. >:(
Randomly ranted ♥ 6:52 PM
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
BALLS. I skipped school again. I can just fuck myself upside down. I don't know what's wrong with me. I shall not skip any lessons. If not I'll just kill myself.
Okay bye.
Randomly ranted ♥ 2:33 PM
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
I feel bad. I feel guilty. I feel uneasy. Sigh.
I did a lot of bad things for the past days. Shit. I promised myself a good attendance, but, I skipped like 5 lessons last week (3 days). Yes, I'm bad, but I just don't know why. Sorry to myself. Argh.
I guess I'm going crazy soon. Paranoid, fears, and sleepless nights. Thoughts running through my mind every now and then, and it's one of the reason which refrains me from my sweet dreamland every night. I guess that's me, forever thinking that much. Forever.
I just came across this article. It's such a cruel thing to do to your love(d) ones. How can a person just behead another who is so close to you, and whom you love so much. I guess that's something you'll do out of jealousy, out of anger. Sometimes, when you don't manage anger and jealousy properly, things can go wrong, very wrong. Love turns to hatred; rage.
Love, uh huh. What exactly is that. I don't know. And I don't even care. I had been on the shelf for year(s). Yeah, but do I care? (Okay -.- Sometimes I do.) Single is good. Go anywhere, with anybody, without restrictions.
I'm so addicted to this song. (Okay! RANDOM!)
We were as one babe For a moment in time And it seemed everlasting That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free So I'm letting you fly Cause I know in my heart babe Our love will never die No~
You'll always be a part of me I'm a part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I ain't gonna cry no And I won'tbeg you to stay If you're determined to leave girl I will notstand in your way But inevitably you'll be back again Cause ya know in your heart babe Our love will never end No~
You'll always be a part of me I'm part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I know that you'll be back girl When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh I know that, you'll be right back, babe Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
You'll always be a part of me I'm part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....
You'll always be a part of me (you will always be) I'm part of you indefinitely Girl don't you know you can't escape me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby And we'll linger on (we will linger on....) Time can't erase a feeling this strong No way, you're never gonna shake me Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
Always be my baby.
p.s/Balls! I need to wake up early for the next two days. Sucks >:(
